Ivan Noble and death

Its been quite some time since I last posted anything of note. for the last two and a bit years I have been reading Ivan Noble's (he was bbc journalist in science and technology) online journal and his battle against the brain tumour he was diagnosed with in august 2002.

I never met the man or really knew the person, but through his online journal I understood his fears, his hopes and most of all his humour and dignity through such difficult times. Last night I sat up all alone whilst umar and nazia were sleeping and contemplated about death. How fragile our existence really is, ivan noble has left a wife and two kids a boy and a girl. The boy is about the same age as umar, 5 months.

to not know your father or for a father not to see his kids grow up. Well what could be worse, to miss out on all those endless joys and anguish that parenting brings. Surley it would be the most difficult thing to take.

what is even more strange is today ? ... this morning ... driving to work. I managed a complete 180 degree spin on Baildon Moors. I had driven over the highest peak, into the brow of the hill into a sharp steep descent. Inexplicably I lost control of the car as the backend went, leaving me helpless, the car span round completely leaving me facing the opposite direction I had travelled. I was lucky not only where there no cars behind me or any cars travelling in the opposite direction but aslo the car did not slide off the road into the valley of rocks below.

Is'nt it tenuous how precarious life is.

peace.